What a great workout today at crossfit! I can feel my muscles becoming more powerful. And underneath the bulge, I believe the skinny girl within is starting to form. Each night when I share about my day and I reflect on crossfit, I always want to say, "This was the hardest workout so far". However, I believe they are all rather challenging. Yet each time I go, I am doing better than before. I am getting closer to the middle of the pack when it comes the amount of times I make it through the circuit. Today I did kettle bells using the 20 lb weight instead of the 15 lb weight I used last week. We also did jumping squats. Guessed who jumped? Me! It wasn't four to five feet in front of me like the rest of the class, but still it was a jump. I am still doing the "very out of shape person jumping jacks" which I decided after today I will just call "low impact jumping jacks" since I am getting more in shape everyday. My goal is to be doing "real" jumping jacks one month from now. And, at the close of the workout, the trainer that was gone last week told me he could see a difference from when he left!
Since I started attending crossfit, I must admit that I have been so very exhausted and the rest of the day after my workout I just drag around the house making sure that all of my children stay alive and are fed. Every couple days or so, I put them in the shower and spray them off really good to get them clean. Forget cleaning the house. Forget laundry. Forget anything but focusing on not saying the word "ow" with each step I take. My husband did all of the laundry last Saturday and it still sits in my room waiting to be folded.
Today I decided things would be different. No more dragging around. Today I will make an effort to get my house in order. It took me about five hours to start carrying it out after my workout this morning at 6 AM, but nonetheless I got going. Laundry, dishes, sweeping, mopping, vacuuming, cleaning out the baby's highchair that still had cake in it from last Thurs (I know. That is really terrible!), picking up toys, picking up more laundry and picking up more dishes to wash was all accomplished. My husband walked into the kitchen when he got home around 5:30 and said, "Wow! I can really see a difference." I hate that it got to the point that just a little maintenance made such a big difference to him. But I am happy to say that I was able to function today after crossfit and do things for my family. And what is so very crazy about the whole ordeal is that once I finally got going, I really didn't feel very sore anymore and functioned pretty well. I guess I won't have any excuses anymore not to do my job. (Should I be sharing that? Maybe my husband will skip this posting. Ha! Ha!)
Two more days until "Weigh Day". I have mixed emotions about it as it approaches. However, tonight I will focus on the great day that I had and all that I accomplished. I am excited that I am becoming a better version of myself daily!!!
"The only one who can tell you 'you can't ' is you. And you don't have to listen."- Nike
I know of a woman who lost 7 sizes (22W to 8) but only lost 30 pounds. Just think where she would be if she had let the scale discourage her! I hear a little song in my head, "Change is a happenin' change is a happenin''."
ReplyDeleteI love reading your blog because it isn't all about slapping a smiley face sticker over everything. We hear the good and the bad of the struggle. And you keep moving forward. The reason many of my attempts at self-improvement haven't always worked in the past like I imagined them is that I didn't keep a countdown and keep moving forward. A "bad day" led to another "bad day" and before I knew it several months went by and I would realize I just stopped trying because the "perfect plan" hadn't worked again. It's a process. I see that more clearly (and more kindly) from this distance. Thanks for sharing yours.
Thank you Barbara. I love it!! That is what I have thought too about other weight loss books and people talking about it. It is all happiness and smiles and never hearing about discouragement or fears. That is not real life. That is a marketing package. And my previous bad days have led to bad months and bad years, so I know EXACTLY what you are saying!!! :)
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