Remember Bonnie Raitt's song "Something to Talk About" that was popular in the early 1990's? The lyrics start out, "People are talking, Talking about people. I hear them whisper, You won't believe it." Today I learned that someone I have known for a very long time was doing just that concerning my blog. However, what they were talking about wasn't very nice. I know they said it because they never thought it would get back to me. They are the type of person to say derogatory things in private instead to someone's face. Yet, I did hear about it. And it did hurt my feelings. Comments like: "What's this about Karen trying to lose 100 lbs in 100 days?" and "Well how much has she lost so far?". And of course, this is the absolute worst week to hear anything like that with 0 lbs of weight loss being carried around in my back pocket.
"They", whomever "they" are, say that it takes 5 positives to 1 negative to neutralize and 20 positives to 1 negative to equal happiness. That's where my dear husband comes on the scene. I was talking to him about it and crying and telling him how I must just look like a complete fool to people. Four weeks of exercise and dieting and only EIGHT pounds to show for it!!! How on earth was going to make any significant dent in my goal at this rate? Plus, this week I have seen a significant drop in my blog views. Other people must think the same thing about me concerning what I heard spoken today. Are they all just sitting around laughing to themselves saying, "What does Karen think she is doing"? I look just idiotic and everybody knew it before today except me.
After listening to me rant for a while, he then began to remind me of all of the great friends and family that I have who do support me and cheer me on daily. I get numerous emails everyday encouraging me to keep going. Several people have sent me nice notes. A couple friends have sent me workout videos saying, "Here let me help you meet your goal". Another one paid for my crossfit. Others have told me about websites for healthy recipes and suggestions on healthy foods to eat. One of my friends on her trip last week to Vegas sent me bath bombs for me to use when I finish my workout. "So many people are reassuring you that you are doing great. Your friends don't think you are a fool at all," he said. And you know what, he is completely right! Yes, it made me sad and discouraged me to hear those words. However, when I focus on the great words of encouragement I hear everyday, it lifts me back up.
So I ate my yummy salmon for dinner and then I went downstairs to attempt Jillian's 30 Day Shred again. The difference between this week and last week as I worked out to that video was phenomenal! I was able to get up and down off the floor so much easier. I kept up with the reps far better. I still had to do "very out of shape person's jumping jacks". And yes, I still felt like I might die there towards the end. But I did it!! And I will do it again and again. Whatever it takes to reach my goal!!
Philippians 4:8 (Message) - Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse.