During the "warm up", she passed me running around the building at the speed I used to run to first base when playing softball and said, "Come on. This is just the warm up." Fortunately for me (so I would not have been arrested for assault), I was not fast enough to catch her or I would have yanked her ponytail. I was also already breathing pretty hard too, so I wasn't able to tell her that if she wanted to have a taste of being me she needed to go and pick up a couple hundred pounds of weight and then do her jog. I do think that she meant well and was trying to be encouraging. However, while I am no longer afraid of being there, I am not at the place of joking about my lack of athleticism either. Most likely, I just need to lighten up.
Later on, one of the trainers was also trying to raise my confidence said, "Go, Karen. Go!" All I could think was "Run, Forest! Run!", which was a little funny and inspiring at the same time. After all, when Forest Gump did run he lost his leg braces, scored a touchdown for the University of Alabama (Roll Tide!!) and won a medal for saving Lieutenant Dan in Vietnam. When I am running, I am loosing weight, scoring more fun time with my family and winning in my struggle to be healthy.
Overall, I am really enjoying being there. Yet there are many things that I cannot do that I used to be able to do like jumping rope for example. That was part of our warm up today too. So instead, I had to do an alternative exercise of what I like to call "very out of shape person's jumping jack". This is where you move your hands like you are doing a jumping jack and step from side to side. Each time I have been at a place of having to do this, whether at the crossfit place or at home with a workout video, I will admit it has been discouraging. Especially since, I used to be a fit person and running and jumping and doing jumping jacks was no problem.
Yet when I am at that place, I remind myself that one day I will be able to do it all again and exercises like the "very out of shape person jumping jack" with be a thing of the past. Other things like "fat jeans" and plus size clothing will also be a thing of the past too. I only have to struggle for a little while before I am physically great again!!