While still a good number for me, it was not the goal I had in mind. And since I like to complete my goals, I must admit that it was a little disappointing to not make the 10 rounds. Just as the repeated theme in my blog has been some disappointment due to my weight loss progression not meeting or exceeding the 75 lbs of weight loss to this point I thought I would have had.
Then my mind goes to the other extreme and I begin to beat myself up in the other direction. Why isn't 7 plus rounds OK? That was a good number for the level I am now at. Why can't I be happy with 26 lbs of weight loss? At least I am losing something and no longer gaining weight with each passing month.
It is as though I am in a no win situation continuously beating myself up on all sides. No matter what happens, I can find a reason not to be happy with the result. And this can happen not only with my weight loss and exercise goals, but any goals that I set for myself.
So today, as I reflected on all of this, I made a decision. It is a hard one for me, but a commitment that I will do my best to keep from here on out. No matter how far short I fall from meeting the goal I set, I will CHOOSE to be happy since I am now closer to the goal than I was when I first started. This includes workouts, exercise challenges like my 5K next month, and yes, even the infamous "weigh days".
I will put any failures, setbacks, letdowns, frustrations and defeat behind me in order to celebrate the small victory I have made. I know many days this will have to be a conscious decision on my end and not something that will come naturally. Yet I know I can, if I set my mind to it. As one of my fellow crossfitters reminded our class today, "The mind is a powerful thing".
2 Timothy 1:7 (New King James Version) -
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
WOD (Workout of the Day)
As Many Rounds as Possible in 20 mins
- 5 pull-ups
- 10 push-ups
- 15 sit-ups